Update

Happy St. Patty's Day all. Ordinarily, I would write something like "Happy St. Paddles Day", but that's still not in the cards right now.

The strange energy continues around here for Kim and me, though it has gotten somewhat better. While I won't go into a lot of detail, we figured out the source of most of it.

Kim has a very deep connection with her younger sister, and both had had the other on the brain for the past several weeks. As it turns out, Kim's sister called with unhappy medical news regarding herself and Kim's young nephew. Events that will probably required Kim to be away for a couple of weeks in the near future to help her sister.

To top things off, Kim has been suffering from a stomach bug since last night. It's either that, or my cooking from last night, I haven't decided which...lol.

Through it all, we have both kept a stiff upper lip and tried to deal as best we can with things. It is difficult though...for both of us. Kim feels bad...she feels as if she's letting me down. I am trying to be supportive and understanding, and not show frustration for it all.

I feel as if I have had to put my HOH stripes in the drawer for a while, not because I'm not HOH, or because Kim has stopped looking at me that way...I just feel that I can't control what is going on around us. Spanking Kim right now would topple things around us and just make things worse. At least that's what my instinctive "little voice" is telling me.

As I have stated in the past, LDD, spanking and the elements that go with it are a question of timing, energy and connection. Kim and I have lost two of those three elements for the moment. We still have an amazing, loving connection...thank God. Kim is my wife first, my submissive wife, second. I guess from the HOH view, support and understanding during such times is every bit as important as knowing when a spanking is called for.

Kim and I will keep you posted on how things are going.